Yang aku perjuangkan, Yang kau abaikan.

Setiap orang punya kisahnya masing-masing. Dalam kisahnya, ia harus berjuang, berdiam dan menunggu  pun juga adalah bagian dari perjuangan. Menunggu. Itulah yang selama ini kulakukan, sebagai wujud dari perasaanku yang entah mengapa masih ingin memperjuangkanmu.Kamu  menjadi bagian hari-hariku. Setiap malam, sebelum tidur, kuhabiskan beberapa menit untuk membaca pesan singkatmu. Tawa kecilmu, kecupan berbentuk tulisan, dan canda kita selalu membuatku tersenyum diam-diam. Perasaan ini sangat dalam, sehingga aku memilih untuk memendam.
Aku sudah berharap lebih. Kugantungkan harapanku padamu. Kuberikan sepenuhnya perhatianku untukmu. Sayangnya, semua hal itu seakan tak kaugubris. Kamu di sampingku, tapi getaran yang kuciptakan seakan tak benar-benar kaurasakan. Kamu berada di dekatku, namun segala perhatianku seperti menguap tak berbekas. Apakah kamu benar tidak memikirkan aku. 

Di mana kamu ketika aku inginkan kamu di sini? Ke mana larinya kamu ketika aku berjuang untuk satu-satunya mahluk yang kupikir bisa memberiku kebahagiaan nyata? Seringkali kumaafkan ketidakhadiranmu, seringkali kumaklumi kesalahanmu, dan selalu kuberikan senyum terbaik ketika sesungguhnya aku ingin menangis.

Ini semua perjuangaku untuk mempertahanmu, apakah sudah cukup menghilangkan ketidakpekaanmu? Inilah perjuanganku, yang selama ini selalu kauabaikan. Apakah hatimu sedikit tersentuh, hingga kauingin datang dan membawaku pulang?

Aku menulis ini ketika mataku tak kuat lagi menangis. Aku menulis ini ketika mulutku tak mampu lagi berkeluh. Aku mengingatmu sebagai sosok yang pernah hadir, meskipun tak ingin untuk aku perjuangkan. Seandainya kautahu perasaanku dan bisa membaca keajaiban dalam perjuanganku, mungkin kamu akan berbalik arah—memilihku sebagai tujuan. Tapi... :')

Insomnia-_-

Baiklah,ini sudah kesekian kalinya saya mengalami insomnia. Ya..ya…ya,sulit tidur akut lebih tepatnya! Browsing sana sini, ‘berkicau’ di jejaring sosial ternyata hanya mampu membunuh rasa bosan tidak lebih dari 30 menit.
Dan kini,saya terjaga!!! Dengan mata mulai membengkak dan senut-senut dikepala yang semakin menggila. *ada yang lebih buruk?*
Tapi ada hikmah dibalik insomnia ini. Akhirnya saya memiliki waktu untuk ‘menjenguk Fatny'yashari Room \ (•ˆ⌣ˆ•) / saya yang sudah terbengkalai sejal beberapa bulan terakhir. *sok sibuk*
Blog walking yang saya lakukan sejak tadi ternyata menyedot perhatian saya. Ah,betapa menyenangkannya menuangkan isi pikiran di ‘dunia’ ini.

*hooaaammm* <– ceritanya nguap
Yak,tampaknya sudah mulai ngantuk nih. *merangkai doa,menarik selimut*

Alhamdulillah. LULUS guys \:D/

Lalala yeye Lalala yeye
berhasil-berhasil-berhasil Hore. hahaha:D
Hello guys,long time no see.. baru sempat nge post lagi nih.
Guys ngak perlu bertele-tele deh,langsung to the point aja. okesip. hari ini fatny mau cerita tentang keLULUSAN yang fatny berhasil raih diUjian Nasional 2013.uyee :D manteeeeeeeeeeep.

tahun ini ujian nasional banyak cobaanya loh, mulai dari ujiannya ditunda, lembar jawaban tdk berkualitas, soal ngak cukup, dan semacamnya lah. tpi........................ syukur alhamdulillah fatny bisa!
selain itu, banyak hal yang buat fatny patut bersyukur. selain berhasil LULUS, fatny juga bersyukur krn fatny LULUS bersama orang-orang tersayang fatny. pokoknya Ths to Allah SWT :-*

yah.. sekarang sisa nunggu pengumuman SNMPTN jalur undangan. Doakan yang terbaik  :)

Kabanggaan BARCELONA :*

Nama : Victor Valdés Arribas
Position: goalkeeper
Place of birth: Hospitalet de Llobregat (Barcelona)
Date: 14-01-1982
Height: 183 cm
Weight: 78 kg
Debut: FC Barcelona-At. Madrid (2-2, League), 01/09/2002

Name: Seydou Keita
Position: Midfielder
Place of Birth: Bamako (Mali)
Date: 16-01-1980
Height: 1.83 m
Weight: 77 kg
Debut: FCBarcelona– Wisla (4-0, Champions League), 13/08/2008

 Name: Adriano Correia Claro
Position: defender
Place of Birth: Curitiba (Brazil)
Date of Birth: 26-10-1984
Height: 172 cm
Weight: 67 kg
Debut: Sevilla FC-FC Barcelona (3-1, Spanish Super Cup), 14/08/2010
Twitter:http://twitter.com/AdrianoCorreia6

Name: Javier Alejandro Mascherano
Position: Midfield
Place of birth: San Lorenzo, Argentina
Date of birth: 08-06-1984
Height: 1,74 m
Weight: 74 kg

Name: Alexis Alejandro Sánchez
Position: Forward
Place of birth: Tocopilla (Chile)
Date: 16-12-1988
Height: 169 cm
Weight: 70 kg
Debut: Real Madrid 2-2 FCB (Spanish Supercopa) 15/08/11

Name: Carles Puyol Saforcada
Position: defensa
Place of birth: La Pobla de Segur (Lleida)
Date: 13-04-1978
Height: 178 cm
Weight: 80 kg
Debut: R.Valladolid-FC Barcelona (2-2, League), 02/10/1999
Personal Website: http://www.carles5puyol.com/
Twitter: http://twitter.com/carles5puyol

Name: Daniel Alves da Silva
Position: defender
Place of birth: Juazeiro (Brazil)
Date: 6-5-1983
Height: 173 cm
Weight: 64 kg
Debut: FC Barcelona-Wisla (4-0, Champions League), 13/08/2008
Personal Website: http://www.danialves20.com/eo/

Name: Gerard Piqué
Position: defender
Place of birth: Barcelona
Date: 02-02-1987
Height: 192 cm
Weight: 85 kg
Debut: FC Barcelona-Wisla (4-0, Champions League), 13/08/2008

Name: David Villa Sanchez
Position: Forward
Place of birth: Tuilla, Langreo
Date of birth: 03-12-1981
Height: 175cm
Weight: 69kg
Debut: FC Barcelona-Sevilla FC (4-0, Spanish Super Cup), 21/08/2010
Personal Website: http://www.davidvilla7.com/
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/pages/David-Villa-Sanchez/20714737025

Name: Sergi Busquets Burgos
Position: Midfielder
Date of Birth: 16-07-1988
Place: Sabadell (Barcelona)
Height: 189 cm
Weight: 73 kg
Debut: FC Barcelona-Racing (1-1, League), 13/09/2008

Name: Lionel Andrés Messi
Position: Forward
Place of birth: Santa Fe (Argentina)
Date: 24-06-1987
Height: 1'69
Weight: 67 kg
Debut: RCD Espanyol-FC Barcelona (0-1, League), 16/10/2004
Personal Website: http://www.leomessi.com/

Name: Thiago Alcântara do Nascimento
Position: Midfielder
Place of birth: San Pietro Vernotico, Italy

Date: 11-04-1991
Height: 172cm
Weight: 67 kg
Debut: Flamengo,Ureca,Flamengo,Barcelona B,Barcelona

Name: Pedro Rodríguez Ledesma
Position: Forward
Date of Birth: 28-07-1987
Place of Birth: Santa Cruz de Tenerife
Height: 169 cm
Weight: 64 kg
Debut: FC Barcelona-R.Murcia (4-0, League), 12/01/2008

Name: Éric Abidal
Position: defense
Place of birth: Lyon (France)
Date: 11-9-1979
Height: 186 cm
Weight: 75 kg
Debut:Racing-FC Barcelona (0-0, League), 26/08/2007

Name: Andrés Iniesta Luján

Position: Midfielder
Place of birth: Fuentealbilla (Albacete)
Date: 11-05-1984
Height: 1'70
Weight: 65
Debut:Brujas-FC Barcelona (0-1, Champions League), 29/10/2002
Personal Website: www.andresiniesta.es/
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/AndresIniesta
Twitter: http://twitter.com/andresiniesta8 

   

The Reasons Why I Love My Boyfriend

The following article contains 100 reasons why I love my boyfriend that will prove to be a sweet gesture of love for the lucky guy. Hahaha-_- maybe in Indonesian's language it means 'lebay' or 'alay'. But no problem..

I was recently asked why I love my boyfriend so much. This simple question stuck in my head and I kept wondering why I love him? I believe there can't be any reasons to truly love someone. But showing someone how much they mean to you, always brings them closer. Thus, I too sat down and began to jot down a few reasons on why I love him so much. It's not always the physical part that brings you closer to someone. While compiling the list of the reasons why I love him, I found out there is so much to our relationship, that we seem to take for granted. It's not always the gifts, dates and the large gestures of love, but the small things in our everyday lives that makes a relationship special.

If you can come up with 100 reasons to love someone, it is a sure shot sign of being in love. There is no specific definition of love. Love just happens. However, not every one of us is an expert on how to write romantic love letters. So, what do we do to show our love for our boyfriends? Well, begin an amateur writer myself, I have compiled a list of 100 reasons. This is a small way to show my beloved, how much I love him.

 Why I Love Him So Much:
1. He has taught me the meaning of love.2. Every time he looked at my heart jumped a beat.3. To compliment he gave me.4. He always made me feel like a princess.5. He always puts me before himself.6. He always said what I needed to hear.7. He's always sending me love messages every hour.8. He called me just to say I love you, and how I am.9. He can read my innermost thoughts.10. He can tell when something is wrong with me.11. He can not be mad at me for a long time.12. He cares for me.13. He could have anyone he wanted, but he took me.14. He did the things I like, even if he does not like them15. He gave me a sweet kiss.16. He gave me a special feeling that no one can give me.17. He has a purpose in life is achieved.18. She has black hair.19. He is a God fearing person with a strong faith.20. He was a good sport even when I'm not.21. She is always happy to see me.22. He was always interesting, even when we do not say anything23. He is simply irresistible.24. He is the light of my life, she was an inspiration.25. He knows all my secrets and know to keep them safe.26. He knows how to bring a smile to my face.27. He likes to do things that make me happy.28. She likes to try new things.29. He listened to me.30. She looks so cute31. He loves me even with all my faults.32. She mocked me and then kissed me.33. He made me a better person34. He made me feel like the most special girl in the world.35. He makes funny facial expressions.36. He was never angry when I talk too much.37. He never intimidate me.38. He patiently listened to all my stories, about things that happened to me all day.39. He respects me.40. She shared her life with me.41. He remained on the phone for a few extra minutes even though he was busy with his work.42. He tells me what's right when I'm wrong.43. He thought I was one.44. He understands me.45. He was always honest with me.46. He's passionate.47. He's so handsome.48. He was the one I can always count on.49. She is too hot to handle.50. His charm and charisma.51. Good people skills52. Her eyes, her lips and her silky hair.53. His patience with me even when I push to limit sometimes.54. Warm smile just makes my heart melt.55. How he always makes me laugh or smile even at times when I did not want to.56. How can he get me out of a bad mood.57. How does he respect me58. How he was always worried about me and my well being.59. How he always understands me even when I did not deserve it.60. How does he make an effort with my friends.61. He's a beribawa62. How he says funny things over and over and it never gets old.63. How he talked to me every day when we were just friends.64. How I miss him always.65. How we both get along well66. How do we stay up too late talking about nothing.67. I have always been comfortable with her and never awkward.68. I can ask stupid questions without feeling stupid.69. I can be myself when I'm with him.70. I could spend time with him because he's crazy adds spice to my life.71. I could tell her anything and she would not be surprised.72. I loved being with him.73. I know he will be one of the most successful people in the world someday because no one deserves it more than him.74. I like his name75. I love to hear his voice over the phone.76. I love how he calls me baby77. I like that he demands respect but does not control.78. Just a touch ... and I lost my heart once again.79. Just glanced at each other from across the room, and we know what each other is thinking.80. The fact that there are endless reasons I can give for why I love him.81. He was right 90% of the time.82. A little look she gave me when we are around family and friends.83. The way she comforted me when I cried for no reason on the phone84. The way he forgives me immediately when I did or said something that made him angry.85. The way he held my hand.86. The way he enliven up the room just by being in it.87. The way he looks when I get all dressed up88. The way he appears in my dreams89. The way she speaks90. The way his arms around me felt91. The way that he knows how to not take life too seriously and live for the moment92. The way we plan our future together.93. The way he pretended he was going to do what I suggest.94. Think he adds a wonderful touch of love to me every day.95. We've been together for 1 year and I love him so much already96. When she looked at me and she thought I was not looking.97. When he looked into my eyes for ages98. When we argue about who is the most loving.99. You always find me beautiful, even when I look like a clown.100. You know how smooth wipe my tears and bring a smile to my face.

Selamat hari ibu, terima kasih sudah menjadi mama yang paling hebat :'):*{}♥

Hay... beberapa hari yang lalu fatny ikut lomba menulis surat untuk ibu yang diadakan oleh keker fajar.pengumuman juaranya akan diumumkan hari ini..tepat hari ibu 22desember :). mau tau isi suratnya..... yuk:)

Surat untuk mama :

Bagaimana kabar Mama detik ini ?,semoga selalu ada dalam lindungan-Nya..

Ma, mungkin surat ini surat pertama yg kutulis untukmu, meskipun sudah 17 tahun lamanya Engkau selalu memberikan kasih sayangmu yang tak terhitung untukku. Betapa bodohnya aku yang tak tau terima kasih ini ma, aku yang slalu malas untuk membantumu, sering menunda pekerjaan yang Engkau ingatkan padaku. Melalui surat ini ma, aku ingin meluapkan sluruh cintaku untuk mama, walaupun mungkin mama tidak mengetahuinya.

Ma, waktu itu tepatnya 1 Agustus  1971 dimana 41 tahun yang lalu lahirlah seorang yang kini menjadi Ibuku. Bahkan jauh sebelum engkau dilahirkan, dalam buku takdirmu telah tertulis nama Fatny Yashari Soumena yang akan menjadi anakmu. Menyadari ini, Demi Allah.. fatny sangat bahagia terlahir menjadi anakmu.

Mama, terima kasih. Telah memperjuangkan hidup aku di dunia ini. Menahan beban demi tempat hidup ku, bersakit-sakit ria dengan penuh peluh yang menetes, dan merawat aku hingga aku sebesar ini dengan penuh kasih sayang.

Mama, maafkan aku.Jika aku tumbuh tak seperti mu. Aku tumbuh tak sesuai harapan mu. Sering aku melontarkan kata-kata kasar, dan membanting sesuatu jika aku marah. Aku sering melampiaskan kekesalan ku padamu, padahal mama tak bersalah. Mama hanya bisa meneteskan air mata, selalu tersenyum melihat ku tersenyum di atas penderitaan mu.

Jika aku selalu mementingkan perasaan ayah daripada perasaan mu, Ma. Mungkin aku belum menyadari betapa besar pengorbanan mu untuk keluarga kecil ini.

Mama, aku sayang mama, Mama..aku cinta mama

Ya Allah. Anugerahkan kepada Mamaku kelangsungan hidup yang baik dan Engkau ridhoi, panjangkan usianya, sehatkan badannya, baikkan agamanya, sejahterakan jiwa dan raganya, berkahi rezekinya, anugerahkan kepadanya derajat terbaik diHadapanmu.

Bantulah aku, agar bisa berbakti kepadanya berbuat baik kepadanya dari sisiMu. Jadikan restunya menjadi RidhoMu selalu, menyayangiku, mencintaiku. Jadikan aku, anak yang baik dan takwa, yang punya pandangan dan pendengaran yang taat kepadaMu, yang mencintai dan setia kepada kekasihMu, Muhammad. Dan menjadi anak sholeha yang kelak mampu menjadi penolong Ibu dan Bapakku. LOVE YOU MAMA .akuuu padamu mama{}:)♥

Haloo.... longtime no see :-)

hay! Sorry nih baru nongol lagi

kemaren-kemaren sibuk belajar.

Yeah, sekarang udah ujian semester loh!

banyak banget yang pengen diposting, tapi gimanana yah,

nggak tau harus mulai dari mana.

Yah cerita tentang semesteran ajah yuk.

Semester kali ini yah lumayan berbeda dengan semester tahun lalu .
semester kemarin semua soal essay dan kurang leih 15 nomor. tpi entaaaah mengapa semester tahun ini bagi kelas 3 dan khusus pelajaran yang diUjian Nasionalkan jumlah soal 50 nomor. dan hasil ujian dikirim langsung ke Orang tua. MasyaAllah bangeeeeet Щ(ºДºщ). 

segitu rempongnya kah menjadi anak kelas 3 ? (tinggal disekolah sampai sore untuk belajar,pas ulangan jumlah soal 50 nomor dan hasil ulangan dibagi ke Orang tua masing2,dapat tugas dan hafalan yang bertubi-tubi) :((

pas ujian bingung mau jawab apa. ya.. kalau otak sudah tdk mampu untuk berfikir,palingan minta bantuan dari teman :-)